梦

无人的夜里

宁静的道路

有着小小风扇的伴随

红红的双眼

迟睡早起的习惯

热热的空气在屋里屋外进出

丝毫不把窗口当着一回事

填不饱的肚子

在肠胃里打着响鼓

长长的头发

只有夹子才能安抚它

长长的想念

是你无法理解的

每个人都有一个梦

梦不是和你想的一样

不一样的梦

有着不一样的路

你从来都不知

路

究竟有多长

究竟有多短

究竟有多危险

究竟有多安全

路

对某些人来说

是那么的明亮

是那么的光耀

但

有对某些人来说

是那么黑暗

让人抓不透

人生有多少个十年

人生有多少个二十 年

有人

有着全盘的打算

有着刚烈的决心

华人新年的到来

已不是那么的明显

不一样的国家

有着不一样的习俗

不一样的国家

有着不一样的庆典

生活在这里

是享受

还是折磨

都不是

这是一种磨练

逃避是一种对磨练的无声抗议

面子书上人们讨论的事

已不是我的话题

老朋友渐渐的没联络

新朋友渐渐的增加中

老与新

只在一线中

我的体会

相信是没人懂

羡慕朋友的至交

羡慕朋友的活动

考试的到来

带来的压力

经济的负担

这些都是磨练吧

人们倒数回家的行程

我却倒数考试的到来

不同的人格

不同的命运

人在深夜有着和早上大不同的情绪

对事物的要求

是求无止境

奢华的生活

不是我现在能过的

要风得风

要雨得雨

是迈向失败的第一步

重重的眼袋

像是承载着猜不透的重量

是时候

关上面子书

关上电脑

关上灯

进入只属于我自己的

梦

Thanksgivings!

This year,last year? The countdown was awesome,we were celebrate the new year by worship God. It is totally different from the previous years.

I believe that that are many ways to celebrate a new year coming,I had chose my way to celebrate it.

At the end of the 2010,I was keep thinking of what has God done to me,I really appreciate it.

The moment that I spend with cell members,I felt that celebrate new year in worship is really meaningful for all of us,we share about what happen to us in 2010.

2010 is a past,it means,anything bad which from 2010,we should throw it away,and have new start.

Honestly,for me, a new year doesn't means it is totally new for me,because I think every single day,when I wake up from sleep,open my eyes,it is a new year,a meaningful day for me.

That are lots of things waiting for me to facing,to challenge,to fight with them.

God always like to put some challenging stuff inside my every single pages,however,God also always give us a happy ending at the bottom of our pages.

The best is yet to come,it is a meaningful words, phrase for me,I will never forgot what God has taught us. Although I am facing any difficult problems,the best is waiting for me behind the huge number of problems.

Last 4 weeks,I will be in Kuching,with friends who haven't meet up for an age,can't wait to see them. I don't have a lots of friends in Kuching,it is a fact. Sometimes I was thinking it is all because of myself,should say,it is my fault actually.

I am a person who do not talk a lots, but it doesn't means I act cool. I want to communicate with other people,how I wish I got friend anyway.

I went to the church this morning,and we talk about thanksgiving again,and it was great that I learn thing again.

Thanks God for the relationship between my family,He brings me more closet to my family,building a new bridge,pull down the wall between my farther and I.Although I still trying hard.

Tomorrow school is going to reopen,I feel happy that I can learn something new again,but feel sad at the same time because of the holiday "mood"is still doesn't want to leave me aways.Hatesss.

So I really pray hard for the future thing that I will be facing! Thanks God!

New Trimester! =)

It has been a few months? I haven't update my blog,well... here I am!

I just got back from my 2nd hometown where is Kuching,a lovely place that I used to grow up. Don't get confused, my first hometown was Sibu,I was born in Sibu,so I am a sibu lan. LOL

Well... this home trip was quite fun,except for some parts, that is really really such a terrible in my life. Wish to forget about it, but seems it won't be true.=(

Okay,forget about the sad things, let's talk about the funny things,when first day I reached Kuching, there is only plenty of people know that I'm arriving at that day. Just because I want to surprise all my friends with a surprise way,like suddenly appear in front of them,so choose to keep the secret about my flight. Hmm... unfortunately,I was totally fail gao gao...haha!! The first day.. okay, I went to didi's house,and find them,when I reached there,there was no body there,and I try to go walked in the house and go upstairs to search for those guys. I still remember,didi's dog was still chasing me that time, luckily dog doesn't makes any sounds,otherwise my plan will be totally spoiled by just a DOG? LOL when I walked up the stairs,I didn't heard any sounds, I guess they might be going out at the moments,so I decided to go home first. Day one. Mission failed. LOL

Then the second day,I went to didi's house AGAIN! ,it was empty also! I'm like..what the hell, they supposed to be gather at here every night. So..I give up for searching them at the moments,I called them. -_____- haha! Such a funny things.

Wait wait,since I haven't taste the Kuching KAMPUA for half year,when I was in Kuching the second day,I called my neighbor who is WEI LIN PANDA came out for the first home trip breakfast, first meal was KAMPUA + TEH C PENG. SUPER ENJOY! =)

I was lucky,because one of the players (suak) was coming back to Kuching as well,so with him,I got chances for playing some games which is contain adventures .haha! So... after a few days discussion,we decided to have a paintball match! =) there were some people PAN SENG, so only got 8 people were actually playing.

This is what I get from the match...haha!

I didn't feel any pain when finished the round,but after I went back home,at the moment that I was having my shower,it felt sour,and itchy. haha!

This was the only activity that I done this time,but next time,it will be more! Please! =)

Nothing specials actually,we just hanging around, sitting at the coffee shop,and lim teh almost all the night, well.. obviously my sleeping hours has totally get influence by those "teenager peer" LOL Oh..I still remember,when the first night I got back Kuching, I can't even get used to the weather in Malaysia, so..I got flu. haha! Hmm... after such a long time I haven't been to Malaysia, the first impression that I think of Malaysia is, why is weather is super duper hot,Malaysia is super dirty ,and most importantly, WHY SO MANY LAKIA! haha!

Bad impression,right? haha! Well..I prefer weather in Australia,but food..hmmm lose chin chin... haha! Perth is getting hot now.. like almost 30 degree each morning. DEAD . -___-

I'm having my new semester now,but... the timetable shows me that I only got 1 week holiday when Christmas, noooooooooo.... I can't going back this time,so wait until next year! maybe? so worry about it. Please! =)

Tomorrow my class going to start,no more 10 am class, only got 8.30am classes, oh my goodness, need to wake up so early in the morning. Well.. the target of this year, get 70% and jump to the diploma!

Today I went to the church, and I learn something about making decision,you know what..the only place that I always cry is in church,I'm a person who has full of emotion. LOL quite funny,right?

Making a decision isn't a easy for us and you,God has always given us so much questions to deal,something I wonder, why? Why should him always give us to much trouble to face,and not giving guide us to settle it.

But,I was totally wrong, God is always be with use,why He is giving us so much trouble to deal with,is isn't a trouble,is a challenge,is an experience,God knows that we have to face those problems,and He has always guide us,it just matter do you accept the helps from God?

Be faithful,this is what I learned from church,ask him,ask in a faithful way,if you want to know what God really want you to do,ask him,and He will gladly tell you,He is always really to answer all the time.

We always need to face decision every day,even a small decision such as what to eat at the morning, what to wear for a new day. For me,a little decision does has impact rest of your life,it doesn't matter how small how tiny is the decision,even a small action will cause you regret. Today I know that,when I'm lost, I ADMIT that I need a guide,I ASK in faith for direction,I LISTEN for God's response,and I TRUST God when I don't understand.

Prov 3:5-6 NIV

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Amen.

Man Woman, Human Being?

I have been Perth for almost 4 months.

Things have changed,I did learn somethings new from here,the things that I never learn from my parent.
Sometimes,it's so sad to hear a bad news from my senior,I pray so hard for her.
Feels really sad,maybe God has choose the best way for her. I cried twice when I heard the news,she might no very closed with me, but we still had the best time in past time.,even that time I was young. You're always the best leader of the team.=) I know God takes you to a place that peaceful,away from the painful,away from afraid. Human born to be facing a lots problems that God has chosen for you. When the dead line is coming, God picks you back and stop letting you to face those problems. I know you enjoy and safe now,God always be with you. Amen. =)

I was watching people's blog. I feel like.. . Look,they are used to be playing around together now,but not. They hate each other,does that call hate? Maybe? Look at the picture that had taken, those are such a good memories for them. They had a good memory but they don't to keep it. Having a friend is better than having an enemy. In the past, I admit that I was hate somebody,but now,NO. Why people have to hate /dislikes each other? Although I feel many people don't like talk to me,I always give me a stupid excuse and tell myself, that is the truth why. I don't hate anybody,YES. I told myself,why I have to be a person who always hate each other,accept it is the best solution. I always chat with a person,I trust her just because my feel that,she doesn't have to tell other people what I had been told her. It's happy to have a friend like her. We have the same cogitation,we used to chatting by using phone. Since I came to Australia,we don't chat often as usually.I'm glad to have this friend,anyways.=) Thanks

Sometimes,I will take a look of my old albums or photos from the hardish,and you know what. I feel so touching when I saw those picture,because I know I got a lots friends,even they are no close with me. I appreciate it so much that God has given me lots of friends,and I tell God that I want more friends. MORE MORE. =) Friends is the most important part of my life now,I need it in the future,and of cause now. I met lots of friends in this university,and absorb lots of knowledge,and culture as well. As I had heard ,university "homework" is terrible,but life is good, we can choose our class whenever we want to.

Why I'm choosing Australia,there is due to my private reasons.haha but I can tell you,I never regret what I have choose. New life is really hard to settle down,there is no one to cook for you,help you to wash clothes,you have to decide what to do immediately. For me.. it's hard to deal with money. Really ! For sometimes, I really hate to make a decision between should or shouldn't buy it. I HATE THIS HABIT. However,there is some benefits for this habit.

If I have a magic lamp,I would have some wishes that really hope it will come true.
I hope my parents and my family will be healthy always, especially my farther,he has the Diabetes.
I hope all my friends are healthy as well,by the way,this must be no sick no disease!
I hope I can graduate with a good score.

I know that human can run away from the 生老病死. However, what I hope is healthy. For the last hope, I need to score it by myself, no only for hoping.

I wish for healthy, NO FOR RICH. =)
Love you all, to all friends at oversea. Study hard as well. For my junior, fight for UEC, never give up.

I'm proud to being a CHMS1 graduate student. =)

Man Woman, Human Being?